A couple months ago I sat in a meeting preparing myself to let go of something that I love with my whole heart and that is a part of my soul. I was so sad to let go. That is a mark of my life . . . my passion and how I throw my whole self into the things I love. Some people avoid loving like that because they are afraid of the hurt if they lose what they love. I never thought I would take that attitude. That was until the other night when I was speaking with a friend and I made the comment that I was unsure of the future of our organization and I just don't feel like investing myself. Last night I thought of my comment and couldn't believe I said that. I was convicted while at a kickoff event for our new church wide study of a book called Crazy Love. It is an excellent book that is centered on the reciprocation of the amazing, crazy love God showed for us by sacrificing his Son to forgive our sins and promise us eternal life. That is a huge investment in sinful people that constantly let God down. After being reminded of that, I couldn't believe the attitude I was taking. The investment is so worth it and I'm so glad that I have the opportunity to invest myself again with this organization.
We are starting the study on this book in a couple weeks and I cannot wait to see what God does through it. God keeps hinting that big things are coming . . . eeeee!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
new beginnings
First of all, I love fall! Not only the colors, sports, sweathshirts, and food, but the time for new beginnings. I've taken on a couple new things this fall to help me achieve some goals I've set for myself.
Number 1 - the end of my fat summer. The summer is the time where I say yes to anything and everything and thus my pants are starting to get too tight! For the last 3 weeks I have been diligent about my food (logging what I eat online) and exercising like crazy. So far so good. Hoping my body responds the way I want it to and that I can stick with it even when volleyball starts. It also makes me feel better about asking the same things from my clients.
Number 2 - c0-leading my small group. Our original leader had to step down b/c she doesn't attend our church anymore. Another girl and I are doing it and are so excited about it. God has placed it on both our hearts that God has big things in store for our group. It is a challenge for me, though, to get back on track and be disciplined about the things that go with leading the group.
Number 3 - reach out at church and meet new people. To accomplish this, I joined a Beth Moore bible study that meets on Tuesday mornings. I went to the first meeting today and discovered that I was the only single, non-mother in the whole group of about 30 women! I've been praying for an older mentor to come into my life so I'm hopeful that God has someone for me in that group. It looks like a great study that will challenge me to really dive into God's word. It's really going to challenge me to connect with others, but I'm excited about it.
Here's to a great fall!
Number 1 - the end of my fat summer. The summer is the time where I say yes to anything and everything and thus my pants are starting to get too tight! For the last 3 weeks I have been diligent about my food (logging what I eat online) and exercising like crazy. So far so good. Hoping my body responds the way I want it to and that I can stick with it even when volleyball starts. It also makes me feel better about asking the same things from my clients.
Number 2 - c0-leading my small group. Our original leader had to step down b/c she doesn't attend our church anymore. Another girl and I are doing it and are so excited about it. God has placed it on both our hearts that God has big things in store for our group. It is a challenge for me, though, to get back on track and be disciplined about the things that go with leading the group.
Number 3 - reach out at church and meet new people. To accomplish this, I joined a Beth Moore bible study that meets on Tuesday mornings. I went to the first meeting today and discovered that I was the only single, non-mother in the whole group of about 30 women! I've been praying for an older mentor to come into my life so I'm hopeful that God has someone for me in that group. It looks like a great study that will challenge me to really dive into God's word. It's really going to challenge me to connect with others, but I'm excited about it.
Here's to a great fall!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
the gift of age
I met some new clients if I need to change this week who are 27, but I never would've guessed their age if it wasn't written on their questionnaire. I am terrible at guessing people's age because I have such a skewed view of my own age. I thought to myself . . . "I don't look as old as them." The same thing happened when I watched Romy & Michelle's High School Reunion last week. They were going to their 10 year high school reunion (which we have next year) and I know I don't look as old as them! When I shared this with Karen, she just responded . . . "we are old." Great! It's not a bad thing, I just don't know if I need to change my self perspective or something.
One thing I know for sure is that I am grateful for the gift of age and all the things I have learned along the way (knowing that there is still much, much more to come). All of our FaR Out freshmen have been away at college for a few weeks now and it's interesting to read their facebook statuses. They share about going through the hardest time of their life - physically, emotionally, and mentally. I remember those days . . . your whole identity changes and you are pushed to the max. I thought I would never be challenged more than that in my whole life. I thought that until I graduated and was on my own . . . then I realized that life could get a whole lot harder. Through all of those experiences I realized that life can always get harder and it's important to find a way to enjoy the period that you are currently in. There will always been challenges, but if we dwell on those we will miss all of the joys that we could experience at the same time.
Oh, I love thinking I am so wise at a mere 27. :) I do appreciate the peace that God has given me about my current life stage. It's fun to just enjoy myself. Although I'm looking forward to what God has in store for me next . . . I'm trying noo to rush because I know the unknown will be a lot of difficult challenges.
One thing I know for sure is that I am grateful for the gift of age and all the things I have learned along the way (knowing that there is still much, much more to come). All of our FaR Out freshmen have been away at college for a few weeks now and it's interesting to read their facebook statuses. They share about going through the hardest time of their life - physically, emotionally, and mentally. I remember those days . . . your whole identity changes and you are pushed to the max. I thought I would never be challenged more than that in my whole life. I thought that until I graduated and was on my own . . . then I realized that life could get a whole lot harder. Through all of those experiences I realized that life can always get harder and it's important to find a way to enjoy the period that you are currently in. There will always been challenges, but if we dwell on those we will miss all of the joys that we could experience at the same time.
Oh, I love thinking I am so wise at a mere 27. :) I do appreciate the peace that God has given me about my current life stage. It's fun to just enjoy myself. Although I'm looking forward to what God has in store for me next . . . I'm trying noo to rush because I know the unknown will be a lot of difficult challenges.
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